Its disgusting to know how your ex boyfriend like another girl
when that 'period' of time you're still with him.
So disgusting to know how they can lie through their teeth
and saying stuff like 'I love you' 'I miss you' 
'I hope we'll still be together when I'm in NS'
'We'll get buy a house together when I'm out of NS'

Worst to worst hugs & kisses you like nothing happen
Empty promises

How can anyone be so unfaithful?
It disgust me to the max

I asked myself.
Why did I stay so faithful with a person like him?
If I knew this was happening, I wouldn't date him at all.
Cause I realize HE was the kind that fall in LOVE so easily.





WHY DIDN'T I NOTICE THAT WHEN HE SAID HE TRIED TO WOO
GIRL 1-2-3-4 BEFORE WE DATED

OH GAWD WAI

I hope I'll never cross path with you again
Your 'Character' in my 'Life Story' has ended
Please don't appear in my 'Story book' ever again.
As a friend, I think you're the worst kind.
You treat your friends like 'friends for benefit'
Friend with no value = Ignored

seriously... DUA ZHENG

It was a good thing everything ended already
I was right all along.
from the start to the end
NEVER TRUST ANYONE BUT YOURSELF

This is a lesson I'll remember

-Never try to fit into something that doesn't come in naturally
even with if you tried, people still don't accept you
and yeah ~ I'm the kind that gives up IF things doesn't work out .
plus It's not my interest

-NEVER LEND/LEAVE THINGS THERE
YES I'll make sure I'll never LEAVE stuff with a Boyfriend(IF I EVER DATE AGAIN)
CAUSE THEY WON'T FUCKING RETURN & THEY FUCKING IGNORE YOU

-MAKE SURE THEY DON'T MAKE PROMISES THEY CAN'T KEEP
I'll make sure they don't say shits like
'Getting married and start a family'
This kind of super far away shit. MAKES THE WORST EMPTY PROMISE

and OH how I WISH I go could go JAPAN
TO RIP OUT THAT DISGUSTING MESSAGE HE LEFT THERE

SAYING THE LOVE OF HIS LIFE
AND HAPPY ENDING WITH ME

CHEESIEST SHIT

Yes I'm Ragging like a Ragging NERD :D

K THX BAI

End

Its been so really damn long since I did a post.
an almost abandon blog...

2013
was a great year at the start, but it kinda turn sour around the quarter of the year
failed my engineering exam. retake and didn't score well
might not even go poly anymore.

broke up with boyfriend on 7th dec'13
on some days it felt like nothing happened(its like no impact in life)
part of me didn't give a damn and yet somewhere inside my heart said
it hurts

nothing else. it just hurts  ~ like that

its not a feeling that one could die from
but just an uncomfortable feeling inside my heart
its feels like something is squeezing my heart and the feeling of fear together
not sure if there is a term to call this 'hurt' feeling

but really.. why am i so pathetic ?
i hope 2014 will be a good year (:
i don't think its worth ending my life either

cause I'm an OTAKU :D
i'll always look forward for weekly anime/manga release
and year end youtube rewinds and etc !

wooooooo~ ! 
I hope i'll forget about this relationship
not a single memory left would be better
so i wont be butt hurt like an idiot LOL

2014
I SHALL NOT BE WEAK AGAIN !
LIVE LIFE AS I WISH !
FIGHTOOOOOOO

2013 ! day 7
Back to school Day 1

Right now its 5 in the morning !
and I can't sleep ! in few hours time I'm gonna be a zombie in school

Bad new for myself !
I FORGOTTEN EVERYTHING !
AWESOME RIGHT? FUCK YOU CELYN

Been so crazy over LoL ._.
Oh well ! I still love support roles :D !

This year is gonna be a 'I'LL FREAKING GO BROKE YEAR'
thanks to the amount of friends that is turning to 21 ):
seriously FUCK YOU ! I wish i could skip 2013 T___T

YOU BELONG TO A MUSEUM ! *random Ezreal quote*
LOL :D

Seriously ! I can't sleep ): and I'm really bored to death !
Should i play RO2 ): Yes No Yes NO YES NO YES I DON'T KNOW

See how ! so lazy =_=
Final year is here woohoo ! Hopefully i'll make it to Poly


GOOD LUCK BITCH :D k time to watch random videos

Cool it's been dinosaur months since i post something,
life is currently good i guess?

if only a certain amount of people have a neutral feeling than dislike/hate
life would be even better ! but sadly that's just a wishful thinking.. as there are brats
or i should say ignorant brats out there. life would be even better if they are dead -.-










especially this girl with a weird morals.....

but still, life goes on ....







I'm tired ): like really tired
i'm not doing well in anything...
-sigh-

hopefully things will get better soon..

I feel so useless for some reason and money is always an issue to me.
To begin with, I'm always poor from the start. I tried my best to save, did all i could.
end of the day, I'll end up spending them all.

I feel that, no matter how much I want to cosplay... money is still an issue.
It's an expensive hobby that I love... but didn't get the chance to do it... till this year
when I get to do it, I realize I don't have the money & skills for it.

Firstly I'm fat and ugly. No matter how much i try to hide with make up. its still the same results
nothing can change the fact that I'm born ugly.

Sometimes I wish I was born pretty... I have not been losing weight recently....
more like.. gaining them... I wish I could stop eating/control my eating habit..
guess that's really impossible...

Been feeling really down... can't tell my bf anything...
Cause he might think I'm troublesome... or what so everrrr ~

Maybe I'll reconsider over some stuff before I really quit cosplay..

Woah its been a real long time since i last blog. 26 march was the last post @_@''
well life is currently great, been very happy with my cuddly boyfriend.

and yeah i didn't lose any weight again ~_~ instead i gained weight.. 2 kg D:
sadddddddddddddddd

-sigh-
right now school ~ so far so good. only QCT and MLT is killing me
made a few new friends and yeah get back in contact with an old primary school friend

currently addicted to League of Legend.
been playing it since my boyfriend introduce that game to me
so far... the only character that i'm somewhat good at is Sona ._."'

cosplay ~ so far so good.
3rd june I'm going to have an Ao no exorcist photoshoot
Can't wait for it :D ! heheheheheheh

Oh wwelllllll ~ anywayssss I'm late for school LOL :D bye

have not lost any weight, been lazy for the past few days
nothing to do ~ boyfriend at japan.
rotting =3='' ~

I did like to say.. I'm in deep shit..
I couldn't finish my maths paper for my maths exam...
-sigh- this semester maybe.. 2++ gpa.. -_-'' fuck my life..

I feel bad.. sometimes I feel like a burden to people ._.'' ...
so so so so tired...
I wish my hair can grow faster -_-'' so that I can remove my hair extensions

recently.. I kinda gain some weight...
I have no time to play dance central.. even if I have time.. I'm too tired..
-sigh-...

I feel so down recently,emotionally & physically.
I feel tired,troubled & sick
I feel that there is a monster inside of me eating up all my confidents and filling me with doubts.
I feel that I'm gaining weight instead of losing weight.
I feel fat when I'm with my female friends, they always look so much slimmer than I am.
I feel ugly
I feel disgusted at myself.
I feel that I degrading myself everyday with negative thoughts.
I feel that I cannot reach up to expectations.
I feel stressed out at some stuff.
I feel that i could secretly cry like a loser everyday, but my pride won't let me.
I feel that whatever I do is a waste of time, sometimes it doesn't matter anymore

I tried saving money, but it didn't work out well.
I tried changing for the better, but the lazy part of me always gets in the way.
I tried keeping long hair, end of the day I'll cut it short..

I get jealous easily at stuff that I don't have.
I get angry easily, but I don't say it out.
I get hungry easily, I tired my best not to eat just to slim down.
I get bored easily..

so bored ~

BLOODY HELL I NEED MONEY =3=''

Wow its been awhile since i blog.
Updates
Kor bought 1 hammie,named it Hairy-Bi it gave birth to 2 babies, Bikini & Hermes
Hairy-Bi and Bikini died ): ... due to unknown reasons.. -sigh-
now left Hermes. Currently making her chubby !

Bought a xbox kinect, currently crazy over Dance Central 2
Slim down ~ Got myself a boyfriend(Miracle, serious !)

Add and remove cosplan
added kirigakure shura & tojo ruby
planning to cosplay Dance Central 2, Team Glitterati's Jaryn
but first ! need to slim down even more @_@'' still fat lol

life so far~ so good i guess.
Damn tired, have not been sleeping well -_-'' dying !

My brother bought me a white face roboroski hamster on 22 dec 11
I notice she was slim and fat at the butt area LOL
I planned to feed her till she's fat :D I named her Hairy-Bi ! LOL !
epic name but I like it :D

Day 1 she was fine. active and stuff like that
Today day 2, Christmas eve. Played with her in the afternoon, well of cause i did feed her!
Put her back, wanted to play with her in the evening. but she was sleeping.
I thought i was normal, since its raining too. So I didn't want to disturb her, let her sleep.
10+ check again. wanted to play with her but she'll still roll up into a ball.

12am ! CHRISTMASSSSSS !

Went to check out if she's awake and YEAH ! SHE IS ! so I carried her out to play.
she's damn active ! I realize something.. How come she become thinner ?!
then I saw moving in the cage ಠ_ಠ...........................
I thought it was a cockroach or something...
I moved the sawdust to see what is it there... hoping it's not a freaking cockroach !
and I saw 3 babies there !! I didn't know my hammie was pregnant.

So I went to my brother's room to tell him, he was shock as well !
He took 3 pictures of them, sadly.. one of the babies died ): stillborn.. it was cold..
-sigh- ): ! hopefully the other 2 babies will grow up furry and cute like their mom :D !

Morning I'm going to meet Eunice to collect my wigs :D
Then pass some stuff and collect money from Yun .
Afternoon meeting Shan Hui for shopping and Gongcha Session ! :X

SO BUSY ! AND TIRED
26 dec, make up session with synchronicity cosplay group at nick's house.
27 dec, going to absalom's house to play xbox kinect with all the cousins
28 dec, nth LOL :D
29 dec, outing with xin and yun + others(dunno how is coming along)
30 dec, celebrating xin's belated birthday
31 dec, meeting auditionsea fam house members :D

LEFT 1 FRIGGING WEEK OF HOLIDAY !
WHY THIS YEAR'S HOLIDAY END SO FAST!?
I WANT MORE HOLIDAYS !!!

9 Jan'12 back to school ;_; FML

update on cosplay's cosplan ~ add in
Gray Fullblaster [Fairytail] -Edolas ver, Default set-
Spirit Albarn(Maka's Dad) [Soul Earter] -Default set-
Aono Tsukune [Rosario + Vampire] -Formal set-

That's all for now :D

So blooddyyy longgg since i last blog LOL
getting lazy to blog nowadays.

bought a lot of cosplay stuff.
decided to be other characters instead of the 1 before this post.
so not gonna be meiko again. dont fit to be her -.- tsk

Currently my cosplan(or to be correct next year what am i going to cosplay as atm)
Mephisto Pheles [Ao no exorcist] -default,kimono ver,hani hani sister ver-
Shima Renzou [Ao no exorcist] -default-
Kaito [Vocaloid] -Monochrome blue sky & Secret Police ver-
Meiko[Vocaloid] -Monochrome blue sky & Synchronicity ver-
Loke [Fairytail] -default, not spirit ver-
Laxus [Fairytail] -Younger ver-

now i got super motivation to slim down after looking at my big list of characters plus cosplay team mates ! must slim moahhh !! NYHAHAHAHAHA

i feel like cosplaying amaimon =3= but im like hmmm he's not easy to cosplay ):
ahhhhhhhhhhh ! nvm slim moah then say HAHAHAHAHAHA !!

its been 2 weeks since i last blogged @@
went to afa'11 with xin,wen hui and lauren :D !
*happy* took a pic with mephisto ! hur hur hur !

ahhh next year i also wanna cosplay ): !
look sho sexyyyyyyy ~
just signed up as a helper at sgcafe forum's vocaloid magnet cosplay
shall see how they cosplay :P !

-sigh- i'm still fat ):
but i dont care !! shall lose weight ! mwhahahaha

I'm so picky ): i dunno who to cosplay for afa'12
actually we plan to cosplay as a group theme ~
but sadly ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Lauren wants to be a witch from l4d2
Samantha wants to be akazukin chacha/alice
Xin no idea what she want to be ?_? awhile luffy, awhile oga tatsumi ~
Wenhui, same problem like me ~ cannot decide on 1
Vanessa, i dunno.. she said she wanna be shirayuki mizore ~
oh well up to her ~~
so end of the day its a cross-over anime cosplay o3o'''

Currently this are the few characters i wanna cosplay~ (but dunno who to pick)
Shima Renzou (Ao no exorcist)
Okumura Yukio (Ao no exorcist) [HEH ! easy for me ! i got specs just nice LOL]
Mephisto Pheles(Ao no exorcist) [i doubt my face can fit his look~ but i feel like trying]
Okita Sougo (Gintama) [Don't know want to do his gakuen ver. or his normal set]
Orihara Izaya (Durarara)
Heiwajima Shizuo (Durarara)
Edolas ver. Gray (Fairytail)

i don't dare to pick female chars ):
cause i'm not pretty ;_; sob ~!! maybe when i gain a bit more confident ~
then i shall cosplay as Vocaloid's
MEIKO
Megurine Luka
Hatsune Miku

K ! cannot think of others -_-''

and goddammit ! need to buy wig !
sad leh ! taobao.com is in chinese -.- and my chinese failed horribly..
nvm shall ask my mom/cousin to get for me ;x ! then i pay HAHAHAHA !!

need to buy at least 4/5 short hair wig.
1 brown [Okita Sougo]
1 black [Yukio,Izaya & Gray]
1 pink[Shima]
1 blonde [Shizuo]
1 Mephisto wig ( dunno should i get it or not -_- ~)

need to ask karyan's mom to make school uniform LOLOLOLOL
epicccccccccc ~_~' whatever ~
need to learn how to put make up/ contact lens

16 days more to holiday !
then time to slim down ! dec holiday = 1 day 1 meal or 2 = eat lesser ;x !
JYJY ! FOR COSPLAYYYYYYYYY !

WOAHHHH ! okay still pixiv/zerochan/dA/fanfic/manga maddness LOL
So farrr the only thing new is ~ my hair color :) right now its purple.

been studying with my classmates.
maths is really killing me ):
yesterday, we went to changi airport to study.
it was fun and epic :D
Kar yan, Clapperton, Ricky, Teck lee, Ah boon, Stanly and Marcus.
Sadly mei yun didn't join us, because she was sick.

Today study group part 2
just Ricky, Teck lee, Ah boon and me.
evening Absalom came over to help a little :)

so tiredddd !!
i hope tml i can do the maths test ): !
scared and worried ): ! FMLLLLL

i enjoy higher nitec so much more :D !
alright time to sleep ! tata