Cool it's been dinosaur months since i post something,
life is currently good i guess?

if only a certain amount of people have a neutral feeling than dislike/hate
life would be even better ! but sadly that's just a wishful thinking.. as there are brats
or i should say ignorant brats out there. life would be even better if they are dead -.-










especially this girl with a weird morals.....

but still, life goes on ....







I'm tired ): like really tired
i'm not doing well in anything...
-sigh-

hopefully things will get better soon..

I feel so useless for some reason and money is always an issue to me.
To begin with, I'm always poor from the start. I tried my best to save, did all i could.
end of the day, I'll end up spending them all.

I feel that, no matter how much I want to cosplay... money is still an issue.
It's an expensive hobby that I love... but didn't get the chance to do it... till this year
when I get to do it, I realize I don't have the money & skills for it.

Firstly I'm fat and ugly. No matter how much i try to hide with make up. its still the same results
nothing can change the fact that I'm born ugly.

Sometimes I wish I was born pretty... I have not been losing weight recently....
more like.. gaining them... I wish I could stop eating/control my eating habit..
guess that's really impossible...

Been feeling really down... can't tell my bf anything...
Cause he might think I'm troublesome... or what so everrrr ~

Maybe I'll reconsider over some stuff before I really quit cosplay..

Woah its been a real long time since i last blog. 26 march was the last post @_@''
well life is currently great, been very happy with my cuddly boyfriend.

and yeah i didn't lose any weight again ~_~ instead i gained weight.. 2 kg D:
sadddddddddddddddd

-sigh-
right now school ~ so far so good. only QCT and MLT is killing me
made a few new friends and yeah get back in contact with an old primary school friend

currently addicted to League of Legend.
been playing it since my boyfriend introduce that game to me
so far... the only character that i'm somewhat good at is Sona ._."'

cosplay ~ so far so good.
3rd june I'm going to have an Ao no exorcist photoshoot
Can't wait for it :D ! heheheheheheh

Oh wwelllllll ~ anywayssss I'm late for school LOL :D bye

have not lost any weight, been lazy for the past few days
nothing to do ~ boyfriend at japan.
rotting =3='' ~

I did like to say.. I'm in deep shit..
I couldn't finish my maths paper for my maths exam...
-sigh- this semester maybe.. 2++ gpa.. -_-'' fuck my life..

I feel bad.. sometimes I feel like a burden to people ._.'' ...
so so so so tired...
I wish my hair can grow faster -_-'' so that I can remove my hair extensions

recently.. I kinda gain some weight...
I have no time to play dance central.. even if I have time.. I'm too tired..
-sigh-...

I feel so down recently,emotionally & physically.
I feel tired,troubled & sick
I feel that there is a monster inside of me eating up all my confidents and filling me with doubts.
I feel that I'm gaining weight instead of losing weight.
I feel fat when I'm with my female friends, they always look so much slimmer than I am.
I feel ugly
I feel disgusted at myself.
I feel that I degrading myself everyday with negative thoughts.
I feel that I cannot reach up to expectations.
I feel stressed out at some stuff.
I feel that i could secretly cry like a loser everyday, but my pride won't let me.
I feel that whatever I do is a waste of time, sometimes it doesn't matter anymore

I tried saving money, but it didn't work out well.
I tried changing for the better, but the lazy part of me always gets in the way.
I tried keeping long hair, end of the day I'll cut it short..

I get jealous easily at stuff that I don't have.
I get angry easily, but I don't say it out.
I get hungry easily, I tired my best not to eat just to slim down.
I get bored easily..

so bored ~

BLOODY HELL I NEED MONEY =3=''

Wow its been awhile since i blog.
Updates
Kor bought 1 hammie,named it Hairy-Bi it gave birth to 2 babies, Bikini & Hermes
Hairy-Bi and Bikini died ): ... due to unknown reasons.. -sigh-
now left Hermes. Currently making her chubby !

Bought a xbox kinect, currently crazy over Dance Central 2
Slim down ~ Got myself a boyfriend(Miracle, serious !)

Add and remove cosplan
added kirigakure shura & tojo ruby
planning to cosplay Dance Central 2, Team Glitterati's Jaryn
but first ! need to slim down even more @_@'' still fat lol

life so far~ so good i guess.
Damn tired, have not been sleeping well -_-'' dying !