I feel so useless for some reason and money is always an issue to me.
To begin with, I'm always poor from the start. I tried my best to save, did all i could.
end of the day, I'll end up spending them all.

I feel that, no matter how much I want to cosplay... money is still an issue.
It's an expensive hobby that I love... but didn't get the chance to do it... till this year
when I get to do it, I realize I don't have the money & skills for it.

Firstly I'm fat and ugly. No matter how much i try to hide with make up. its still the same results
nothing can change the fact that I'm born ugly.

Sometimes I wish I was born pretty... I have not been losing weight recently....
more like.. gaining them... I wish I could stop eating/control my eating habit..
guess that's really impossible...

Been feeling really down... can't tell my bf anything...
Cause he might think I'm troublesome... or what so everrrr ~

Maybe I'll reconsider over some stuff before I really quit cosplay..