Last post was on March 2014
Its been superrrr long ~ I dont know? time? days? months? etc?
Since I post something ~~

So many things happened~
and I don't know where to start~

Currently I have been trying my best to train for my Napfa Test
Not going well.. Been failing my 2.4 run so badly..
I felt so useless and miserable~

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I guess the only thing I can do is to whine here ~ on my Blog
That's the only thing that can make me 'feel better'.

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no matter what relationship I'm in
It's always money issue, frankly speaking.. I hate this..

I feel that I'm better off being single than in a relationship..
I feel that I can't do 'better' when I'm in a relationship..
its like a burden to me, from the start I was never a 'considerate person'..
I hate being 'considerate' and I feel damn tired whenever I'm with the other.

I feel 'happy' being alone
I feel 'charged up' being alone
I feel 'more motivated in doing things'

I just enjoy being alone, I don't have to worry so much
Its always money issues.. I don't have money all the time..
When I was single, I was able to SAVE up a lot of money...
Like  a 50 Dollar pocket money a week, I could save 30.. now being in a relationship
I COULDN'T SAVE A SINGLE CENT. Its like we keep going out..
and I'm spending my OWN money. like everything is on DUTCH
We keep going OUT. I FUCKING HATE GOING OUT.
FUCKING WASTE OF MONEY
I RATHER STAY AT HOME AND WATCH SHOWS OR PLAY GAMES

Back then, Saving money was easy. everytime when I have enough.
I'll buy something I want, things that maybe my parents won't buy for me.

From today onwards, I'll only GO out WHEN I HAVE ENOUGH MONEY.
NO MONEY
NO OUTING
END OF STORY

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I'm tired :(
I'm really fat and tired..
right now I have to pass my napfa test in order to join the Navy
I tried my best.. I really did.. next week.. I hope I can make..
I feel super miserable.. Like really.. starting half of the year wasn't so bad
Now its like BAD to WORST.

I have so much problems in life
That sometimes money can solve 70% of it..

End of the day, I'm just a materialistic girl. :)
All I can care about is being HAPPY for myself.
Just like how I take care of my furryson
FOR MY OWN SAKE OF HAPPINESS, I MAKE FYFY HAPPY..

I'm the worst kind of human being. EVER
Doing nothing and whining all day is what I DO BEST. :)
That's my ONLY TALENT

*sigh*

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AND FUCK MY LIFE
Dreamt about my ex bf last night. SO HORRIBLE.
end up 'talking' to him about 'life'
damn dream.. why can't you fucking DROWN him or KILL HIM
THAT WOULD BE A NICE ENDING than talking about what's happening in life

Never wanna see that fucker again. piece of shit that stole my DS ,
act like a victim and cheats in a relationship.fucking crybaby!
DISGUSTING SHIT, I Hope you fail badly in your 'photography'

Fun fact : Horribly taken photos, "Claim" to be a 'better photographer' but skills like a kid with a camera

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YAY ! DONE WHINING, FEELINGS BETTER NOW :)
WHAT A BITCH I AM :)